It is 6th September, some 2 months for CAT,& am hardly studying,except for giving the mocks, which i enjoy giving.Maybe it satisfies my deep hidden ego somewhere, somehow.So here as i look at the JMET 2009 admission site, now accepting applications, all i can do is wonder "Should i apply ??".
Reality hits hard.Its easy to hate your college & dream to get into those amazing B-school campuses,that i-gonna-take-revenge attitude, supported by a decent mock score which instills in a feeling of 'work harder, you may get into that golden league of so-termed lucky people'.But what is difficult is the reality to actually work hard on it.Dedication is still missing & the most important the 'spark' to do it no matter what & courage which doesn't care about the failures.
Yes, I confess the word is Kakorrhaphiophobia ~ Fear of Failures or Defeat & it is proving out to be as dangerous as any other of those phobia lists.It can finish off a relationship even before it starts.It can bury a realizable dream in its premature stage,something as heartless as crushing that small bud of rose before it blossoms into one of the most amazing beauties of nature.It can direct you & say, why do you want to work when you know it won't be completed & worst of it, it supports the pessimistic attitude which takes you no where in life.
But wait who said fears can't be conquered,isn't an air-flight more exciting when you have acrophobia to conquer over & prove yourself.Who knows there is another lesson in teaching,the coming few months beacause 'Life is too short & there is a lot to enjoy & learn'.So, the mode remains 'OPTIMISTIC'.ONLY ACTIONS NO EMOTIONS..!!
B: Aren't you afraid going out fishing during such a stormy weather, rough sea?
A: Yes, I am.It scares the crap out of me..!
B: Then how do you still manage to venture out ?
A: Its good, am soon running out of all the stock of crap inside me. :)