Monday, December 29, 2008

Bidding adieu

At a year end.

A year ago,the speculations of IBM taking over Satyam computers wouldn't have made me jump up from my chair.I can actually relate to this 'Great Indian IT industry' now..!Those orange coloured pages & economic terms make more sense as newspapers are more than just the daily dose of Cartoon strips & sudoku solving at the back bench and not mere a lecture surviving tool.

A year ago,the joy of sitting among the VIP crowd at a college event would have been just an unimagined dream & beyond words is the amazing feeling of being seen off by a friend, you so wanted to meet once & makes you feel that whoever said 'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away' was actually talking of these :)

A year ago,wouldn't have known that harsh lessons are to be learnt only the hard ways,especially when taught by friends.Neither would have known that every bad thing has a good side too- Summer trainings,the not working & than working of something called projects, team works a part of this package called engineering.

A year ago,the pagalguy B school rankings couldn't have been more meaningful.The numbers suddenly turned powerful.The reservations in the universities & what it means actually hurt now as I found out that (15 + 7 )% of 180 seats is a big number indeed & how some other numbers & scores can boost up a lost confidence.

A year ago, terrorism couldn't have instilled in the terror it now inflicts affecting everyone more than it ever did.

However, the blog still doesn't make any sense..!!Lolz there is always the next year for that..
Life remains same but an year is enough to create those significant changes which are to be noticed only gradually.An eventful year, to be remembered in ways more than one.

Monday, December 22, 2008

being in 20s - Something

This is a direct Cut Copy Paste from a source I can't remember, found it in my draft & posting it now, seems to be too apt now as waiting for so many results drives me nuts..!

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...

We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

Monday, December 8, 2008

Just In random

~ I hate IT jobs even before working in one.
~ College is turning scarier.
~ Countdown Stats: 134 almost..(Man!! will complete my engineering then..!)& I will be the happiest person on Earth then.
~ Blog love goes on increasing.
~ Dasvidaniya is one of the good watch of this year & its got a beautiful website too..!
~ The movie addiction makes a come back yet again.
~ Sunsets are growing more beautiful with every winter evening.
~ The wisdom tooth trouble is on a low.
~ I love Mumbai & hate it being terrorized by just any f***ing terrorist group.
~ Electronics & communication engineering is a big deal, the circuits actually don't work as the submissions come nearer.
~ Miracles do happen if you believe in them & they keep happening if you keep believing.
~ Its 7th sem & the word 'homesick' still goes with me..!
~ Mumbai Airport, My college gate & Papa's office cabin still inspires me the most.
~ Why am I stupid to enough to leave singing..but then somethings are just beyond our control ?
~ Is my blog giving a competition to my dear diary ? but then it is My Galaxy :)
~ Song Buzzing lately : I am with you..Avril Lavigne